ALVINA. soon to be FIFTEEN
currently in 3G and its on th fourth level of ANGLICAN HIGH SCHOOL.
proud to be in th ahsCHOIR and i'm sure many would agree with me. (: music has a strong hold on my life, as i have discovered, in many different forms. my life has many contradictions, but well, life itself is a contradiction. perfection's a goal for many, but not me. dreams are reality tht's yet to come true, & this is all that i have to say!. :D

Friday, November 30, 200710:39 AM267! woke up with a splittin headache =/
sorry cheryl nv pick up 2 of ur calls.
sigh sian.

tday's everybody's gna be out having fun.
while i'll be stuck at home trying to curb this headache & tryin to cure flu by tmr =/
sigh. wad a great day.
zzz.

sorry no tags tday. i tink i hafta go sleep it off. as usual.
bye. i dunno wad to say anymore.
u made me feel tht way. th indifference is too much for me to bear with. can u stop treating me like this?
Thursday, November 29, 200710:47 AMMUMMYYYYY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMYYYYYYYY <3

heh she's so niceee lah.
okay maybe except for th nagging & kp, she's nice! :D

hmm i hafta wait for her to get home so here i am blogging.
main purpose is to wish her happy birthday lah (x

nth much to say lah.
except tht i'm still quite..
zzz.
nvm.
FYI i do not gloat at others misfortunes ):
i'm off to tag at others nw..
bye! (:
sigh. i guess u blame me for it all nw. i can't hold out for long. can't everyth solve by itself? ytd was like =/ lah. broke down. again.

Wednesday, November 28, 20075:15 PMPEIYUN! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIYUN <3
10:03 AMback. err okay decided to come back fr hiatus o.o
one day only haha.
ya cleared th last post tho its very long.
cos.. err nvm.
ya but i decided to keep th horny poem here. haha.
emo. please fck off.

A horny poem

It's your first time.
As you lie back your muscles tighten.
You put him off for a while searching for an excuse,
but he refuses to be swayed as he approaches you.
He asks if you're afraid and you shake your head bravely.
He has had more experience,
but it's the first time his finger has found the right place.
He probes deeply and you shiver your body tenses;
but he's gentle like he promised he'd be.

He looks deeply within your eyes and
tells you to trust him - he's done this many times before.
His cool smile relaxes you and
you open wider to give him more room for an easy entrance.
You begin to plead and beg him to hurry but he slowly takes his time,
wanting to cause you as little pain as possible.

As he presses ;closer, going deeper,
you feel the tissue give way;
pain surges throughout your body and
you feel the slight trickle of blood as he continues.

He looks at you concerned and
asks you if it's too painful.
Your eyes are filled with tears
but you shake your head
and nod for him to go on.
He begins going in and out with skill but
you are now too numb to feel him within you.

After a few moments,
you feel something bursting within you and
he pulls it out of you,
you lay panting,
glad to have it over.
He looks at you and smiling warmly,
tells you, with a chuckle;
that you have been his most stubborn yet most rewarding experience

You smile and thank your dentist.
After all,it was your first time to have a tooth pulled

heh.

anw. 3 more songs to go for carol.
jiayou! (:
lalalalalaaaaaaaaaa.
yeah wadevr.

hmm.
*duck imitation =X
so funny lah.
shittt lah anqi's gonna hit/pinch me again when she sees this o.o

err i feel like typing this one whole big chunk of words but then i know i can't =/
ya so nvm bah sigh.
wadevr its just damn random lah zzz.

sigh.
emo.
wad do i mean to u? i seem to be just another somebody. u give me this feeling tht everyone's more important than me ): i don't know =/ i just want u to be thr for me. i want to feel special. can i not be just another somebody?

"if u can live with the flaws, then u can have true love."

Thursday, November 22, 200710:25 AM262! posttt. dunno wad to put for title so put th post no. lo =X



haha later go back so post this road o.o
hmm oh tday's psle results also hor..
lala.

tmr's choir camp le.
so fast.
supposed to go out with bella tmr de lo,
then end up got this camp then cnnt le ):
sat also. jialin ask me go out aft choir.
then nw also cnnt le lah.

well if tday ends early enough i might go thr (:
yeah.

carol grp jiayou!
o.o reynold can learn by himself bettr ahh so good (x
i nid charis to teach me! xP



okay watch this. its freakin retarded.
jessica alba's jessica simpson =X
haha. good boob O.O

hmm gtg le lah i tink.
yep bye world! :D
i miss u so much d..
Wednesday, November 21, 200710:16 AM:DDDD oh okay i decided to posttt again (:
ahh for those who are workin
shipei casper etc.
jiayous yep xD

hmm yujun tagged again! :D haha.

oh yeah F.I.R :D



ytd was (:
k lah hahahahahaaa.
th sweet very nice.
err not th peach one it tasted like wad, vitamin c tablet or sth-.-
but at least i can get stuff for ppl thr! (x

didn't see any nice shades.
but saw this pair of sandals tht i want,
but nv buy =/
ahh nvm lah wait until my mum bring me out shoppin first then ask her to buy (:
lala.

thanks fellow doob (x

hmm tmr go back cz?
wad time arh? =X
haha.

i wanttt a new bag -.-
& i don't want to see u suffer
这感觉　已经不对　我努力在挽回
一些些　应该体贴的感觉　我没给
你嘟嘴　许的愿望很卑微　在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪
Tuesday, November 20, 20079:37 AMi noticed. i'm tellin myself to stay happy (x
yeah.
with spastic ppl arnd me, it shld be quite okay de bah yep.
lala.
sorry i'm not taggin ppl yet =X
i'm learnin to kan kai more & more le! yay!
if i'm really just being deluded.. ahh.
=/
9:16 AMi noticed. ohwell.
i have nth much to say bah..
except tht..
sigh forget it bah.

tday..
see bah.

nth to say alr its just a stupid post.
bye.

nvm bah. i also cnnt do anyth abt it.
might as well just accept it. sigh.
i hate this feeling. all i can say nw is tht.. yeah. i noticed.


Friday, November 16, 200711:04 PMlalaaaaaaaaa haha hy & jt.
lala.
so cool.
"girls, plz control urself."
=X

not fair their schls so good lah :D
9:23 PM=/ sighhh so tired.

choir tday.
so retarded lah.
tht leongying left early-.-
lucky her haha..

then learnt th HSM songs which sound retarded =X

aft tht went for lunch & charis's hse.
everyth was damn retarded can?!
hahaaa.
rachel is a fatttttttttttt pig who went for a jab! xP
eugenia damn funny lah.
at th void deck thr she suddenly do sth we were all like O.O
haha.
lala.

okay think i'll go sleep early lah damn tired + headache =/
Thursday, November 15, 20072:08 PM don't click this link...

xD
12:56 PMquote <3 "to the world, u may be one person.
but to a person, u may be the world"
:D

haha.
taken from tingwei's blog yup (x

yay tday dunnid to go out!
lala.
haven slept till 11+ in awhile le sigh.
although last sun i slept till 2 o.o

but still.. thr's choir tmr again yep.
jiayous bah! xD

i shall start on my hw soon.
shitttts.
supposed to start tday de lo.
haha i tink cnnt start alr lah.
& i nv buy newspaper also so cnnt do chi th jianbao-.-
hmm..
i still dunno wad we're supposed to do for eng =/
maybe i'll go check later (:

yawn.
maybe i'll go back to sleeeeeeeeep again.
Wednesday, November 14, 200710:47 PMboringggggggggg D: hey decided to post a lil bah x)
haha shall go tag on others tmr as a form of replyin tags! xP
yeah..

hmm auditions tday.
haha.
must prac more (x
yep.

i lead such a boring life-.-
heh.
nth to do de leh.
yeah..
sadddddddddd D:

i better start on homework like SOON.
cos ppl are alr finished with th chinese books or sth,
& i haven started =X
sigh.
我不配.. sighhh.
Tuesday, November 13, 200710:18 PMlalaa. okay was bored so went skin hunting yup..
tht's why changed skin lo (x
yep nth much to say lah haha.

tmr auditions =X
hafta wake up early to go schl zzz.

& i hateeee paper cutttts.
got 2 alr and i dunno why also -.-
sigh.
blame it on my bad luck bah -.-

okay time to go sleeeeeeeeeeep dunno why so tired also ):
ohyeah thanks for th songs btw.
Monday, November 12, 20077:27 PMeffeffeffeffeff. why am i tinkin tht everyth is so eff-ing wrong??
sigh.
maybe i tink too much lah wadevr.
but thr's just this..
grr.
it all just adds up ya?
seeing things.. maybe fr my perspective i can't see it properly but..
or i see it properly but its just tht i don't know tht i'm seeing it properly.
so exactly which one is it? i want to know.

nvmnvm. i smile (: yeah right.
some assurance wld be damn good.
Saturday, November 10, 20078:51 PMsigh.. choir tday..
so tireddd la.
sigh.
i don't want to make u upset or anyth. its just this really short period of time left,& i really want things to go really well. so if u're unhappy abt anyth, just say it k?
ahh. i'm just so tiredddddddd.
slpet awhile just nw le wake up abit better but still tired ):
i don't want to feel th way i feel now.
its startin again.
can i have some reassurance?
sigh.
i'll just go off and think abt things with me & myself, alone.
at times, its strange tht when u read a few lines, it'll make u think of many more although it just plainly shows tht its just a few simple row of words.
oh well.
if only precious memories could be re-enacted.
or maybe not.
because then they wouldn't be precious anymore.
Friday, November 09, 20079:37 PM(x nick shipei casper jianle.

sorry damn busy these few days.
okay these TWO days. hahaha.
so fun aye.
2 bbqs last night!
okay not la. is one at night one in EARLY EARLY MORNING.
yay (:
one stick of CHAO TA marshmellows.

o.o red house.
wth.

then wad huh?
urm.. transformers? haha.
fell aslp halfway bah =X
monopoly.
its so cool.
but don't play with casper.
he has some kind of luck arnd him de lo unfair can (x
lala.
but with all th Fwords & other vulgarities, damn funny.
middle fingers! xDD



den aft tht washed up skewers (:
so fun hor xP
yep..

SLEEP.
7+ till 8+.
wth. woke up feelin no difference. th other 2 woke up earlier then they cleared th last night bbq stuff.
not fair. i JUST woke up only den tio called slacker -.-
very difficult to wake u up xP
swimmin.
superrr cold la.
but all th middle fingering.. haha!
bad influence to kids.
lucky th adults saw early & brought th kids away.
den aft tht damn funny la.
nick go point at someone. den th someone turned out to be..
jianle!
haha.

is cartoon de lo.
subway for brunch. okay i didn't eat much.
someone else did (x
lalaa den went casper's hse put stuff.
cos check out alr so sad la ):
yep den went wildwildwet!
so cool.
& COLD.
wah is really freakin cold la.
ahh shyt i tmr den cont'd or sth.
want go sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep alr (:
byebye!
wna go kope pics 1st anw (x
thanks <3
i miss you. u've left me with great memories & i treasured th time spent with u.
it just seems so lil to me la sigh. i love you.
Wednesday, November 07, 20072:44 PM... sigh i'm sorry but i don't tink i have th mood to blog tday..
yep.
another day bah.
byebye(:
i'm off to sleeeeeeeeep. haven't been slpin well.
eh wait maybe not.
i'll go read my 8days bought ytd.
lilin's hot xD
sigh. me?
Monday, November 05, 20073:27 PMchalet! lala gonna go chalet soon le.
supposed to meet at 2.50 but late le hahahhaa.
cos we takin taxi thr.
nobody wan come help us take stuff -.-
zzzs.
so we take ourselves la.
we pro de (x

christina not pro de (:
lala.

think we're going soon le, aft i off comp!
yep tatas.
hiatus. :D
8:55 AM(: hmm class chalet later? o.o
sigh means i won't be bloggin till wed or sth [or even later]
yep.
continue taggin hahahaha.
later my blog dead le =/
lalalalaaaaaaaaaaaa

O.O hafta bring 7 trays thr later. lucky got ppl come & help.
or else i'll just cramp all th trays tgt or sth =X


crapshittttttttts.
i have this premonition -.-
okay i'm not some psychic haha.
guess its not a premonition [x
just a feeling though.
hmm.. tink i go pack th last of my stuffs le bah.
i realised its a good thing i started packin early.
cos i always forget things last min zzzs.

ehh wait. a few vids first. super cool man.


this one is indian de. then th guy he pick out english words la hahahaha.



come & dance & love th fish! haha. this one's russian.
haha retarded xP

2a`07 class chalet (:
hope tht we'll all enjoy it. treasure th last times.
& i'll also treasure my time with u.

Sunday, November 04, 20074:15 PM): fine.
sigh.
i'll just hope.
sigh.

yeah.
Saturday, November 03, 20079:49 PMhappybirthday!:D hmm scroll down see.
th peronality thing.. hahaha (x
lala.

sigh.
th comp sucks =X
nth to do! ):
i wish were with me right now
9:10 PMhappybirthday!:D sh!t i forgot.

PEIXIAN HAPPY B'DAY!
lala takecare alrights (x

lalalaaaaa.
omg wad th-.-
fahrenheit cant blend. zzz.
at least on th disc it was nicer.
here is like ALL AIR.
they can't perform live.

blahh o.o
thanks (x
4:27 PMjust hoping tht things will get better.. hmm..
quite confused abt some stuff nw yep..
ahhh~
nvm haha.
i shall just don't tink abt all these first.
class chalet in 2 days aye? (:

ohhya & tday..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIANRU & ELISHA.
haha i damn long nv talk to elisha alr =X

my fringe's screwed =/
sigh.
i hope tht u'll be thr for me.
Friday, November 02, 20078:36 PM=OO sigh.
i trust u.
mm. i love u

sorry tday nv go tag on ppl th blogs,
my mum's seriously gettin on my nerves.

2:14 PM): ohwell.i guess u have others?
tday nth good happened.
bye.
sigh.
maybe i come to conclusions myself.
but its wad u write tht led me to them.
Thursday, November 01, 200710:08 PMvideos! (x

another retarded one =X
this one's dumb. watch th 1st one okay??
MUST (:
10:04 PM

haha L is retarded (x
9:56 PM

watch this. its retarded (x
8:53 PM(: haha saw tht jinmin also took th dna test thing alr aye (:
she's a wad? BENEVOLENT ARTIST :D
o.o
th dna thing is chio go take th test xD haha.

lala.
okay i'm bored and waitin for someone to come back to th convo.
haha jk!
jiayous okay? gogogogogogogo~ xP

hmm..

when reality sets in, th perspectives just seem to change.
i should learn. i realised tht i need to learn even more.
sigh. i will see.
step back a lil and a much bigger picture would be seen.

anw tday was [:
<3
9:45 AMearlyearlymornin! :D okay i'm up so early in th mornin hahaha (:
ohwell it's for a special reason ;D
lalalalaaaaaaa.

but i'm kinda bored nw cos i woke up so early.
shall go bathe le.. haha
bye (x