ALVINA. soon to be FIFTEEN
currently in 3G and its on th fourth level of ANGLICAN HIGH SCHOOL.
proud to be in th ahsCHOIR and i'm sure many would agree with me. (: music has a strong hold on my life, as i have discovered, in many different forms. my life has many contradictions, but well, life itself is a contradiction. perfection's a goal for many, but not me. dreams are reality tht's yet to come true, & this is all that i have to say!. :D

Thursday, May 31, 20073:15 PM CHINA TRIP!
i just got back from it last night.
n i slpt n slpt until just nw-.-

ah.
mayb i'll be bettr off in china.
i didn't think abt many things thr.
but when i'm back in s'pore.
its like WTH?!
okay wadevr.
i guess no1 realli cares=/

SHANGHAI was okay luh. th bed in th hotel is th biggest among all. although th lobby was friggin small. i still cant believe tht its a FOUR STAR hotel=/ yep. n rite. th air thr super dusty. when th wind blows, all th dust gets in to ur eyes. gah! haiz. th scenaries.. hmm.. [wad did we see thr??] i cant rmb luh.. all super borin to me.. cos i was so tired aft th 7hr flight, whr i slept quite lil.. all i rmb was, i almost got knocked down by this friggin rider who's such a bitch n he knocked me n gave me a buay song look den go off. like wtf??? grr. ya. th 1st night at china was spent at th shanghai hotel slackin n aft tht slpin.. zzz.

HANGZHOU was th best among all(: th weather was quite pleasant n th air was clean. th food was nice n th hotel was nice too. it served th best breakfast among all bah=D hahas. th room was nice;D with th chnls. but no ESPN-.- so we missed th liverpool vs AC milan match. but rite. me n cheryl didn't even wake up at 2+ luh. cos of me=/ cheryl hear alarm won't wake up de. but i will. but rite. i didn't manage to stay awake long enough to wake cheryl up.. haiz. ya so liddat lo): den we wake up eat breakfast.. aft tht take bus to NANJING.

hmm.. th schl rite. from th outside it looked damn NICE luh. but right, th toilets are like. urgh! okay wadevr. i was totally sian diao on th 1st dae when we went to th schl luh can.. grr.. borin yo.. den comes th food. [we're like forever eating n eating, almost all of us put on weight can???=///] th wad xian[2] shui[3] ya[1].. omg. not nice luh so salty=p den joyann cheryl me started eatin this veg which didn't look appetising from th outside but tasted nice when th rest of those on th table went to toilet(: [tingwei didn't like it):] ya. den for th hotel-.- total PORN hotel can!!! toilet no lock, pic of naked woman on table, pics of half naked men n women in th lifts.. total yuck-ness luh!!! okay wadevr.. yup.

i dun feel like sayin anyth else abt th trip le luh.. grr.
gettin emo again-.-
i hate this):
haiz..
but thru this trip right..
i realise tht u cnnt keep secret fr teachers..
well at least not for long-.-
aha.
well, things have changed bah.
n alot too..



haiz.
i knew..
tht u realli dun care abt me.
u dun think abt me.
i'm so fuckin upset to learn tht ytd. [right aft i got back fr china]
tht i cried n cried.
till my tears ran dry.
tht's why i slpt so late last night.
i seriously wasted all of my fuckin time thinkin of u..
wishin tht u'll think abt me too.
fuckfuckfuck.
grr.
its so fuckin upset for me can.
i just cant get over u!
wads fuckin wrong with me???
others get over theirs within a shortshort period of time.
but i cant.
i seriously cant.
i still fuckin love u.
i don't know why.
i can find another guy.
but i cant.
n i won't.
i got so fuckin emo.
n it was ALWAYS becos of u.
i cant get used to me without u alrights.
n ppl still sae..
well i guess it just won't come true.
fuck.
i hate my life.
it was so much bettr in china(:
whr it was all fun&games n without worries.
i hate it when i'm back here in s'pore.
fuck it all.
i hate everyth related to u.
cos it makes me so fuckin upset.
to even think abt u nw.
i've wasted so mani days of my life.
becos of u.
a person who fuckin doesn't care abt me.
when i do.
a person who is so hypocritical.
u told th rest duno wad shyt.
fine luh.
i dun care alr. [i'll try]
i'll stop all my eff-ings.
try luh.
cos no1's showin me concern ;(
zzz.


but aft all these,
i still love u.
although i know this means nth to u.


yeah. n my life sucks-.-
no1 cares n i still have to live it=/
haiz.
still hafta go to sch tmr.
n i'll still see him..
like wth..
i don't want to.
not anymore.
since ytd ;(


i kinda hate everyth nw.
everyth seems eff-ed up n is pissin me off D:
so sad luh can..
haiz..

for th fun time in china, its was
christina cheryl jinghiang peiyun avril rachel hsinyin huiting chengjoo brenda melanie zihuan kimberly qianru joanne cliffton brandon rizvan darren joshua xinlong jiaqin yilin ruibin.

yep.



sorrie but i'm random-in..
super emo&bored nw with no1 here for me..
gah!!! ;((
Monday, May 21, 20073:22 PM ahh i still wna blog!!
abt SLSR!!
hahas ytd onli mentioned abit abt it!!

i shall repeat myself: [uruhm]

SLSR IS LOVE♥+♥+♥+♥+♥+♥+♥+♥+♥

hahas okay i know this is retarded, but wadevr!!

cos of CHOWY rite.
i was lookin SUPER RETARDED carryin A slipper arnd in case see her then can return to her.
den in t end rite.
i NOT ONLI NV SEE HER.
she forgot to bring my slipper!! ahh!!~
u lucki i got spare slippers hor!!
if not i'll make u wear odd slippers to china!!
hahahahahas..
okay lols.
u arh, buy me a pressie fr SHANGHAI!
cos i onli gg thr for 1 dae sobs ;(



yeah n SHIPEI!! aha.
cheerrup yo!!! dun so sad alr hor!!
i duno wad u sad abt luh,
but still..
dun be sad alr!!
n u didn't post THT post aft all!
too WAD alr isit??
heh.
anw loveya(:
talk to u ltr!;D



&ANQI!!
hahas i was th last person u saw from our class hor!!
i'm gna miss crappin & all th complainins & stuff!! )x
i'll def buy u a pressie hor!!!
loveloves<3




軌跡

怎麼隱藏 我的悲傷
失去妳的地方
妳的髮香 散的匆忙
我已經跟不上
閉上眼睛 還能看見
妳離去的痕跡
在月光下一直找尋
那想念的身影
*如果說分手 是苦痛的起點
那在終點之前 我願意再愛一遍
想要對妳說的 不敢說的愛

chorus
會不會有人 可以明白
我會發著呆 然後忘記妳
接著緊緊閉上眼
想著那一天 會有人代替
讓我不再想念妳
我會發著呆 然後微微笑
接著緊緊閉上眼
又想了一遍 妳溫柔的臉
在我忘記之前


心裡的眼淚 模糊了視線
妳已快看不見



yup.
tht's one of my all time fav songs alrites(:
th song quite old alr bah..
but still nicenice de kaes!!!<3


hmm.
ishall stop here.
or i would be crappin-.-
mayb i'll blog again ltr?;D



i'll realli miss u loads D:
2:04 PM hey thr ppl!!!
last post b4 CHINA trip [or i may post again ltr or if i find some comp at th airport(:]
yeah.. i shall repli tags 1st,
den cont'd with another post or else post get SCREWED again-.-



cont'd from 17th MAY



bk: ello gal,how's life??.... anw, thx for tagging. hmm...u have so much time to tag at peoples' blog??....
ya luh!! hahas i free mah(: whoots cya when i go bac to CZ! [IF i go bac thr tht is..(:]

Chengjoo: LOL! Alvina smile! x] Raaahhh you're loved!
yo! i love u too!!<3


18th MAY



chowy: eh how come the words bigger? haha (: SEE THANK ME. the nice cute wonderful girl who always tag <3
blogger sucks luh. my words always liddat de. SCREW IT!! ahh~


anqi: hihihihihihihihihihihihi!!!!!!
yoyoyoyoyoyoyoyo!!!((x


[CHENGJOO's spam(:]
hey thr girl!!!

viNSon: Hi mei! im lyk so screw up bcus of de stupid dance fusion larh... i kena sabo by mr lim =(
hey kor!! cheerrup yo(: loveya<3!!!(x

HUITING: LOVEYOUUUUUUUUU<333love u too my dear!!<3

pEiyun: sexy!! i cant wait to go to china. its gonna be SO SO fun:)
hahas u sure?? yeah mayb=/

chermaine: ALVINA hv fun in china ;D
hmm thx snr!!<3

Chengjoo: LOLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
(x

brenda: hello gal!! must stay happy kaeh? enjoy china! (is thr anything to enjoy?) lolz... loves<3
ya lor. got anyth to enjoy mah?? loveya<3

HUITING: YAY!<33333>
WORMIES!! I LOVE WORMIES AS MUCH AS I LOVE U xPPP

19th MAY

jianle!: hullo gurl! cheer up yea?^^ look forward to PLANETSHAKERS! wahahas xD
okay yeah(: thx yo.

-SHIPEI-: im here to tagg! u're a nice cute and wonderful girl yo! unlike sum retard who claimed so! xDD yep lets emosh!t tgt. love ya<33
hahas ya lor tht retard-.- hahas(: i love u my dear!<3

rachelXD: hey my eng same as you leh!CA1 pulled down to A2 sei sigh):
ooh.. jiayous bah yo(x

chowy: ALVINAAAAA!(: i love you alot okaye *smiles*winkZ* x)) *muacks* heehee. we will be sick and infect the whole sec2s..
no luh. is infect council. but i think onli got ppl get sore throat bah. hahas;D

anqi: <3333333!!!!
<3333333333333333333333333!(x

brenda: nice skin! <33>
yeah thx cya ltr again!!(x

pEiyun: ok. even though ur new skin doesn have any1 wib sexy legs, i still tink its nice thx to de cute kids<3
hahas. so cute rite!!! ah~~~

anqi: hihihi!! ok i'm retarded bt i'm here to tag again
=P no u're not.. my dear!

viNSon: hihi! Mei mei, jus try to cheer up, i noe its difficult but can de larh... i las time oso like dat bfore. PS>nice skin!
hmm okay i try bah. i [TRY TO] won't emosh!t at china!!! lalas~

ada`: hey dahling! cheerrr alright. don't every time sian sian otherwise you'll only make yourself feel worse. muchlove <3
mm alrites. u too alrites(:

wwe: hello.. here to return a tag.. hehe, i like this font..
yo thx kaes(: i'll link u. hahas(:

-SHIPEI-: hey i have the entire set of dolphin bay!<3>
ahh!! my dear they are so adorable!!!!~<3

20th MAY

HUITING: aha! NICE SKIN LEHS! iloveyoutoo!<333>
iloveyouloadsloadsmore alrite!! cya ltr!!!xDDD

rachelXD: hey cheerup(:
alrites thx yo(x

anqi: wheeeee!! mocha frap rocks!! ok lol i'm random =.=
hahas.. treat urself alr?? haven rites=x

tingwei: nice skin... though i duno wad show issit abt and cheer up XD
hahas. loveatdolphinbay! cya ltr kaes<3

panchuen: hi! how's life?
hmm.. it ROCKS?? heh. lols cya soon(:

chowy: I LOVE ALVINA AND HER SLIPPER! <3
i LOVE CHOWY N HER SLIPPER N SLSR!!!<333333333

bel: ah! get well soon la! haha. must enjoy yr china trip! haha ;D
okay thx.. u enjoy th trip too kaes??<3

jianle!: OMG!!OMG!! dolphin bay!!!!! AHHH! wahahs love it xD they were like super cute when they were young! wahas. cya arnd! loveloves<33
jianle!: i LOVE dada! xD
ya lor damn cute rite!!! adorable lil kids!!!((((x

HUITING: lalala. waiting for my name xP AHAHA.!<333
HUITING: OOOH. I SAW IT!LOLS! SO MUST CHEERUP KAYS!<33333 lame="X">
=P hahas they were alright luh okay!! ahh! tday PET rocket sucks-.-

chowy: not fair i see no hearts behind my name. i teach you "I LOVE CHOWY<33333333333333333333333333333333333333">
chowy: its too little the hearts la, but still.. haha bhbness* <3>
=PPP hahas no luh u dunnid hearts. jk! i'll put it some other time luh okay!!!<333

-SHIPEI-: HEY DEAR GIRL! lalala u rock okay. and noooo emosh!t coz u taught me dat (: talktalktalk!:DD aww LOVE YA LOADS<333333
-SHIPEI-: p.s. chowyyyy dumbdumb!<3
mm okay!! lets talktalktalk again ltr!!! aha!! all th crap+emosh!t+gossip+everyth else will come out!!! ah~~~<3



okay tht's all for my tags alrite(:
i cant repli me tags for th nxt 9 daes or so.
anw thr wun be tags for me to reapli bah=/
yupp.
miss me ppl!! [i know i'll definitely miss u]


i'm leavin alr rites..
but u act so..
so..
indifferently.
like u dun care..
not even a reaction from u.
wad have i done to deserve such coldness, such attitude from u??
haiz.
n ytd night u still said tht.
i guess u dun realli mean it rite)x
well.
cos of u i guess i hafta break my promise.
n emosh!t during my trip in china..
sighs.


kae luh.
anw rites.
i'll also miss alot of ppl..
all those who are not gg..
n those from other classes!

ANQI
SHIPEI
CHOWY
YINGJUN
JINMIN
YUJUN

urm still got somemore luh [duh]
but i duwan type all luh okay.. hahas(:


anw tday was th PET rocket thingy.
it was ohsostupidanddumb.
i cant believe i paid TWENTYONE dollars for it unknowingly. sighs. nvm.
wads done cnnt be undone rite?





i'll still miss u. from afar.
do u miss me like i do?
i realli wish tht my miracle could happen.
aft all this time,
i still love u.


Sunday, May 20, 20079:33 PM this is to:
ALL THE PPL WHO ARE RUININ MY LIFE.

pls.
stop it.
who do u think u are??
all th BITCHES in th world.
if u do not want to be labelled as one.
pls,
stop gg out to ruin some1 else's life.
i know..
perhaps u are jealous [ i sound so bhb=/]
or wadevr th reason.
pls stop it.
mayb u're doin it unknowingly..
but..
FLIRTS are equally bad(:
yeah..
esp if u're doin it to get ANOTHER person's attention,
n not th person whom u're 'turnin ur charm on'.
wah seh.
pls hor.
if u're one of those.
stop it.
u're ruinin ppl's life. without u knowin it, u may be hurtin some1 who loves u-.-
yup.
so pls.
just STOPIT luh.

hmm..
comin back to bitches..
stop THROWIN KNIVES AT PPL'S BACK,
N NOT BOTHERIN TO PICK THEM UP.
n dun tao ppl for no good reasons.
like wth??
ppl nv offend u u tao them for wad sh!t reason??
yup.
realli luh!!
-.-
gah!
i hate ppl like U!
flirt+backstabber+liar+apersonwhogoesardspreadinlies [abt same as backstabbin]
yeah.
is like..
wtf luh can!!!
okay i shall stop.
n continue elaboratin another time(:





okay.
nw for:
ppl whom i wanna thank.

thank u ppl.
for crappin with me so much.
i love u guys!!!

eg. HUITING CHOWY SHIPEI CHERYL ANQI......

yeah & th list goes on..
i just won't type all out luh alrites!!!

I JUST LOVE U PPL ALRITES..

HUITING FOR CRACKIN UR JOKES WHEN I WAS SUPER SAD;D

CHOWY FOR SLSR!!! I LOVE U MY RETARD!=DD

SHIPEI FOR CRAPPIN LOADS WITH ME N ALL T TALKINTALKINTALKIN!!! SHALL TALK AGAIN!!
.
.
.
&thelistgoeson..

yup..
tht was more cheery!
bye!!
naggin's startin again-.-
9:21 PM like wow? blogger ruined my post!!
grr..
anw..

SLSR IS LOVE!!!<3

yeah.
Slipper Love Slipper Retards!!
CHOWY&ME!!!(:
CHOWY told me to put LOTSA LOVE into this post yo!!!
yeah((x
LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE
LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE
LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE

okay tht's enough.
i nid to dedicate another post to other ppl.
i shall come back to SLSR ltr!!<3
9:03 PM (:
ytd.. family day finale night!
becos of CHOWY<3, i reached sch at 6+ lo.
rushed like mad luh!
i came to sch with wet hair-.-
hahas.. yeah.
den it was me chowy glen n cheryl.
we crazi at parade square thr.
although we onli had 4 ppl, we could have been a comm!!!(:
th BITCHES comm??[ lols wadevr=x]
hahas.
but we damn bo liao luh.
cheryl n glen go sit on th road.
then me n chowy sit in th middle of parade square.
we played qingnigenwozheyangzuo across luh.
shoutshoutshout.
tht's why i tday no voice;D ya.
den.. FINALLY at like 7 we decided to go join th bbq,
which was held in th CANTEEN,
cos it was abt to rain.
den jinni gna come alr.
so being th nicenice girls,
CHOWY&I went to changchen wait for her.
but we were so tall we were so scared of th lightnin-.-
den jinni below thr also scared luh. we wait for her so long!!
hahas. nvm.
den we went bac to th smoky smoky canteen whr every1's face was red
n some had eye irritation):
okay.
i 4got wad happened alr.
cos aft tht i started talkin to SHIPEI dear on th fone
:D aha. so nice luh..
we talktalktalk abt quite alot of stuff..
for 1h+, until we were told to gather=/
i found out some things luh, fr her..
yeah..
ooh I SHALL SEE IF IT REALLY IS THT OBVIOUS YO SHIPEI!(:
lets talk again another time~
yup.. when we both are sickntired of life [as usual]..
hahas.. n we'll just talk abt those stuff again(:
aha.
MONKEYFACE!;D
lols yeah i'm gna use tht name too.



ya then it was th finale night..
all th performances.. lalala.
shall not realli talk abt it.
cos functions th performance was like..
urm..
nvm. i rather not talk abt it=x
hahas n i realised..
when i was talkin to SHIPEI ytd..
i said loads of F words in front of snrs or any1 else!
ahh~
hahas lols i know, NO LINK.
wadevr=/
anw th last performance bt sec2s n 3s,
we sang th i nv had a dream come true..
yeah.. n th sec 4s..
it was a great performance u ppl put up yo!<3
we jnrs r gna miss not seein u arnd alrites..
yeah):
tht's abt it bah yup..
n also tab she couldn't push th sparklin juice th cork up(:
hahas..
n our GRP PHOTO!;D
yeah! xDD



hmm.. nw for tday..
gah.
i woke up super late again, at 12+..
due to th fact tht me zhuting n meixuan reached home at 12+ each
n we bathed for quite long to get th smoke smell off us..
i felt tht thr was still smoke stink on me aft i bathe luh-.-
yup tht's why i slept late n woke up late [again]
then my nicenice gan-ma come my hse n help me pack my luggage<3
i love her!(:
she sae my luggage too big,
but i think th other one too small lei..
so i use th bigger one lo;D
yup.. then went to tm to buy stuff tht i nid.
eeyer luh. carry until my hand pain.
then also went to eat pizza. again.
i've been eatin alot of pizza recently..
hahas(:
gna get even fatter=/
haiz.
anw.. i think my luggage is almost done bah..
i'm leavin tmr leh!!!
miss me ppl!
i wun be bloggin!!
for at least 9 whole days!!
aha. n my tags are gna be lil lil.
i think thr wun be any.
cos [almost] all sec2s are gg-.-


i'm jus gna miss u.
thru th whole entire trip + [possibly] th whole holidays.
i'll just feel emo.
cos to add to th fact
tht u dun realli care or talk to me anymore,
i cant even see u.
i'll feel lyk sh!t,
n every1 will see me emoemoemo.
gah wadevr.
i'll just not emo in front of others.
i'll sit quietly by myself in th hotel room n emo by myself )x
yeah. i still love u alrites.
like always(:


hmm.. okay.
i think i shall repli tags.
this post's gna be a longlong one.
b4 shanghai.


[FUCK IT OKAY. BLOGGER RUINED MY WHOLE ENTIRE POST SO NW I CANT REPLI TAGS. FUCKFUCKFUCK. I'M SO FUCKIN PISSED!!! GRR.] THEY WON'T EVEN LET ME REPLI TAGS B4 CHINA TRIP-.-]

okay tht's all for my tags.
yep.. hahas. i wun emosh!t so much le!(:
well mayb just a lil.. so sue me.
i'm headin for CHINA tmr night??)x

haiz.
i'll just miss u from afar??
i won't see u for like duno hw long..
sighs..
mayb u just won't miss me at all..
mayb u won't even care tht i'm not ard at all..
haiz.
but i'll still miss u(:

okay. see. onli liddat.
i'm damn good alr.
yup.
i shall stop nw..
MISS ME PPL!!(x
cos mayb i wun have time to blog tmr..D:
Saturday, May 19, 20072:05 PMloveatdolphinbay skin!♥ LOVEATDOLPHINBAY!♥
aha. i came across this skin by chance!!
so cute rite th DADA n XIAOPINGGAI (x
small lil kids making a promise n lockin their pinkies;D
yeah..

SHANGHAI's in THREE days! [incldin tday]
hmm..
not realli lookin 4ward to it though.
cos as i've mentioned in my previous posts..
i'm gna miss ppl )x
yup..=/

ltr gg for FAMILY DAY CAMP FINALE NIGHT.
lols.
chowy luh.
she sick i also sick but she sae go luh go luh she loves me.. blah!
yah so in the end being the ohsonice girl,
i agreed.
yup.
we'll be sick thr tgt in our functions tee n fbts.
lols=x

nw i'm so friggin sian.
tht's wad made me change my blogskin.
it'll kill my boredom(:
i woke up at ard 12.15 or sth then started alr.
until nw..
came across mani 'blah' skins luh..)x
okay wadevr.
my post's gettin super duper borin!..

hmm.
i'm gettin slpy again.
mayb its cos i'm still sad.
or PERHAPS its based on th fact tht i'm currently down with
FLU SORETHROAT n abit of FEVER nw??
gah wads my prob??
i'm always gettin sick b4 an overseas trip!!!)x
last yr malacca also liddat.
nw again liddat.
i confirm sick in china de lo=/
sian.
plus all th things tht are still swirlin arnd n arnd in my brain.
i might as well just go n die luh.
ytd nite i told huiting tht i very depressed.
then she said she brainwash me to make me feel bettr(:
she TAKES A KNIFE N SMILES EVILLY,
CUTS OPEN MY HEAD,
TAKES OUT MY SQUISHY BRAIN..
WASHES IT [or sth.. i 4got STM xD]
THEN PUTS IT BACK IN.
okay this is th shorter version alrite(:
its actualli got more steps de(x
den she also tell me jokes.
make me feel bettr.



THX SO MUCH GOH HUITING! I LOVE U!!♥

aha yeah funni yo..

but it wasn't enough to stop my tears.
from rolling down my cheeks..
i cried n cried.
although i promised myself not to.
i'm so totally useless can.
D=
ihatemyself.nmylifealso.
sighs.
emosh!tt!n here everydae.
n to others.
hw useless can i get?
gah.
...






Once Upon A Broken Heart

Once upon a broken heart
I was walking alone in the dark
Looking for a way to start again
What I wouldn't give for a friend
There was no love in my life
There was no light in my eyes
All the tears that I had cried and cried
Seemed like they'd never end
And I never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that
I'm here with youJust look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine
Long ago and far away
I could never dream of the day
That your love would come my way and stay
And sweep me away and I
Never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine
this is the way a fairytale feels
This is the way I know it's real
'Cause this is the way a broken heart heals
And I never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine









i cant promise you perfection,
because thats not who I am.
i cant promise you forever,
because I dont hold fate in my hands.
i cant promise you the sunshine,
because there will always be rain.
i cant promise you complete happiness,
because with true love there comes pain.
i cant promise you I'll always smile,
because life always finds a way to make me cry.
i cant promise you I'll stay strong,
because its not easy to want to give life another try.

iwunevenhaveachancetopromiseyouallothis.
Friday, May 18, 20079:43 PM lols.
i'mjustsuperboredalrite.
nithinkmylifesucks(:
yeahiguesstht'swadloadsofpplarethinkin..
but..
i'mrealli..
idunno..wheni'minsch.
otherpplhelpmetakemymindoffthings.
yeah.
butwheni'mathome..
iseriouslyjustkeepthinkinabt..
abtallthstuff..
nfeelfrigginsadabtmypredicament.
iputonastrongfront.
forotherstosee.
butbeneathme.
iguessi'mnthmorebutsomeuselessperson.
sighs..
i'mfriggindisappointedtolearnthtabtmyself.................
yeah..
i'lljustkeepmissinu.
nlovingu.
withoutueventhinkinorgivinasinglecareintheworldabtme.
haiz.
wadhaveidone??



stop tryin to copy n paste/highlight/wadever n tryin to figure out wad i've typed.
u don't need to know n its freakin NOYB thx okay.
just know tht i freakin hate myself n my life):
8:10 PMu don't care wah fuck luh wadeva=/
2dae was a super bad dae again luh.
i duno why also.
i just felt tht way.
onli aft th briefin when i went to tm then i cheered up(:
yeah.

hmmm.
went to sch n did DUTY WITH CHOWY again!
aha. n kangning was late tday. lols.
yep n we just sat over thr n crapped loads abt our super lousy results, PPL..
blah yup!

den aft tt then i know realli no pe tday.
lols. i super lag luh=x
hahas..
yup.
then th pat wong come in.
i know i totally hopeless for geog,
den no matter find hw mani marks also wun pass de.
so 4get it lo!
yeah.
hw can i find a friggin 11 marks lei??
haiz.

den math.. sci..
tday was ms pua's last lesson with us):
although i nt sae like her alot,
but at least she tried her best to teach us bah.
so for tht, i'm grateful
so thank you MSPUA!;D

eng.
i was quite happi.
cos my MY i get A1 for eng..
but den rite..
stupid CA pulled me down to A2 luh wtf..
haiz.
but at least my newspaper report got a totally unexpected 2526!

th rest of th dae..
i 4got le luh.
until end of dae.
we had briefin at 2..
then rite.
b4 tt,
to pass our time away..
we [HUITING n ME!] had a GOSSIP FEAST!
okay mayb not exactly..
but we also gossip gossip with rachel n hsin yin abt SOME ppl yeah..
hmmm yup..
tday den i know RACHEL is so KAYPOH also!!!! hahas=DDD
yup.
but it was atill fun fun fun luh okay.

th briefin.
eeyer luh. opg is in charge of our grp can wth..
nag nag nag.
summore she damn bhb can.
sae got students sae tt they love her..
like wth?
who tells other ppl like tht?
haiz wadevr.
am i lookin 4ward to th china trip?
i think not realli bah.
i'm gna miss ppl..
especially U n U(:
yeah..
haiz feelin sad tht i cant see those 2 ppl for such a long time luh..
boo!)x
th china trip rite.
we gg shanghai onli for ONE dae lei wth..):
i wna shop more!!!!(x
n bloody sh!t.
i hve buy th present yet=/
mayb i'll just go to th airport n buy a postcard or sth..
lols;D
opg sae wna check th pressie on mon.
dun care her luh=/
tell her i nv bring or sth.
haiz in conclusion,
i'm not onli realisin tht i'm not lookin 4ward to th trip,
but also th briefin was uber borin n quite useless actualli):
also nv sae nid to bring wad specifically,
like th malacca trip-.-
haiz.

then i went tm.
met my mummy luh!
lawls.
okay wadevr.
but at least i bought my pants n new ripples slippers!! [both also my mummy pay de]
but wad i'm happie abt is,
she didn't scold me for failin my geog!!! yayness!!(:
aha.
she's so nice yo.
i love her!
n u!
n u too!
den ate pastamania just nw..
but not with my mummy..
saw a pri sch fren who i thot wun date with some chiobu leh!
they were even holdin hands! aha.
he looks bettr nw than last time luh.
so nowonder got chio bu as girlfren;D
yup..
den rite..
i was walked home..
n didn't feel like gg home,
so i walked back again! to th traffic lite..
hahas.

so tht's abt it luh. for my dae.

i bet.. tht u wun even care luh can???
haiz i still feel sad over it.
i see u..
with her?
u two seem so close..
yeah.
u don't to care abt me anymore.
i feel so fuckin sad n heartbroken luh.. sighs):
yup.
so depressed.
cos u're addin to my truckload full of depressin stuff.
i bet..
in no time..
i'll be gone from ur world..
or mayb i have alr?
i'm just delusionin myself with all th hope tht i can muster.
so tht i can just stay in ur world.
u don't even look in my way anymore unless its absolutely necessary rite.
haiz.
i feel positively fuckin sad due to tht fact.
i think u absolutely hate me nw.
n u just..
i duno luh.
but i'm feelin absolutely fucked up cos of u okay..
haiz.
lonely.
&tired of life.
&fallin apart.
&still sick.
&no concern arnd me.
&my fuckin dreadful life which won't go away.
&&&..
th list just goes on alrites.
i'm so sorrie i hafta sae such stuff on my blog.
pls forgive.
but i absolutely have to let it all out.
or i'll just suffocate.
with all th rest of my troubles stranglin me..
yeah.
plz.
understand.
if tht's not even achieved.
my life is seriously fuckin fuckin screwed alrite)x
n i might as well just dun live.
i'm seriously pissed at everyth?
i dun wna feel this way anymore.
but thr's no1 ard me.
not nw.
not always.
will it be like this always?
u not being thr for me always even though i told u i would be here tht time when u felt sad?


it all happened..
just because..






all i had wanted was just a lil concern from u.
i didn't seem to get tht.
Thursday, May 17, 20079:02 PM REPLY TAGS! [i'm suddenli in th mood to. cos i'm freakin retarded)x]

15th MAY.

huiting: ahahahaha. U PERV. u actually liked that bk! xPP
dun tell me u dun like hor! aha. yup(: not sae very wad luh actualli.. [tt bk]

Chengjoo: ALVINNNNAAAAAAAAAA!
CHENGGGGGJJJOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! HAHAS. LOVES<3

[ALL OF HUITING'S SPAMMIN(:]
=P heh. lucki i spammed u. i killed BOREDOM.

pEiyun: yayyy. i dropped bt to look at ur sexy legs. woohoo~~ anyway. im SO SO happy dat ferr de 1st tym dis yr, i passed my higher chinese!!! bt i failed science and maths. haha
hahas okay. cont to JIAYOUS!

tingwei: hmph, ur typos even more lars.. see, 2 daes only so mani ppl.. =X aniwaes, my result more suky then u lar... =P
=p MINE IS LIKE SHIT CAN?? f9 for tt fckin GEOG?? blah!

Avril: Yo=) The pervert of all perverts has tagged<333
hahas.. u arh.. hope u dun get in IP(:

jiahui: hi im here to tag
jiahui: hehe. keep in contact!!
yo! got new blog tag me to link u alrites! loves<3

anqi: yo! yr ants get tinier and tinier! and stop sayin the f word luh i needa clean my eyes/ears liao.. loves ya anywayz!!! <3
=/ hahas okay. but u know th mood i'm currently in rites..(:

Chengjoo: hey whats ur email add i wna add you!
added(:

SHIPEI-: dear jiayous okay. im relli sure a certain concern will come(: haha be happyyy<3
hahas okay. i hope so too. but i dun hope too much(:

ada`: lol. i think i know what you mean too. not only shipei hor. =x haha. anw, thanks for tagging at my blog so frequently yeah. really apprec it. loves <3>
=P heh okays i know u know;D yeah<3

brenda: hello!! hahas... get well soon kaeh? <3
alrites!<3

viNSon: hihi! im here again... mei mei go see doctor larh, take medcine den okae lerh =D
haiz i duwan luh. u know hw lazy i am de rite!;DDD

Chengjoo: LOL! loves(:
:D

16th MAY

HUITING: heys!!!(: i cant seem to find whr r u sitting=X hehehs. IM BORED! and ur tagboard is alive cos I SPAMMED(: lols. im js kidding. dunkill me. RMB TML'S BREAKFAST, ALRIGHT?<33
hahas alrites. WORMIES!xD

anqi: muacks!!!! <3<3<3
kisses!!!(:

HUITING: rou ma! LOLS xP
heh. JEALOUS hor! (((x

yingjun: hey girl you haven't link me yep! haha, tkcr lovely;D
paiseh + sorrie!!! yup ASAP ASAP!!!

pEiyun: lalala. im bak again. cos im juz so nice and lovable. cheerios:) takkaire sweetie<3
hahas thx yo girlfriend(:

HUITING: AHA! LETS HAVE A SAY-THE-MOST-FCKS SESSION! LOL
aha. i'll be th winner of th session. yup(x

brenda: hey gal! cheer up ya?
brenda: lolz... its ok if u dun reply... <33
alrites. thx for ur concern. loveya always!<3

Chengjoo: Nice. Your post all got f words. (: way to go Alvina! loves//.
hahas. i rock rite=/ yup anw JIAYOUS!(:

HUITING: ahaha. too many tags to reply?COS I SPAM RIGHT. aha! i cant wait for tml!<33>
i love you too girl! yeah cya tmr(:

viNSon: Lols! Mei, u even more vulgar den me liao hor... pro lorh. hahas XD
hahas. yeah. u lor. i nv talk to u for so long alr. hols muz go out!!!!!~;DDD

anqi: heyss LAOPUO!! life will suck if u think that it does! don't worry, be happy, and i love u always!!
hahas. i'll try to bah. yeah thx for always being thr for me!! i love you!:<33333

bel: hello! ;D heh cheer cheer!
alrites. u too!<3

ada`: hey dahling ;D don't give up alright. cont to jiayouuuu. loves <3>
hahas thx i loveee you!=DD

-SHIPEI-: hey girl! mood swing? hyper and emosh!t all tgt D: anw wait till my geog comes back and we can see luh! jiayous?<33
aha okays. u confirm score higher than me de!!! jiayous too!! lets emo-shit tgt again!!! yeah. loves!<3

TDAY

chua: WOAH BIG TAGBOARD LOL CHEERUP GIVE ME A BANANANANANA SMILE O.O
tagboard very big mah? hahas okay. *smiles*(: u too alrites!

jianle!: hey there! smile okayy((:
yeah thx. loveya loadds<3

c luh. tday onli 2 ppl tagged so far): i hope more will come. but i doubt so. i'm havin a super negative outlook nw. haiz. yeah. cya ppl. mayb i'll blog again tmr=/




8:32 PMgah. argh.
its super duper retarded of me to just keep keepin my hopes up.
cos th harder i wish.
th harder i'll fall if it doesn't come true.
i know.
it just won't happen anymore.
i don't even tt lil bit of attention from u rite.
so 4get it all lo.
just because of ytd.
i feel tht my life is fuckin screwed up luh alrites(x
yeah.
let me be.
all th disappointments just simply starin me straight in my face.
rarh.
wadeva=/
its not like i can choose.
haiz.
ppl tell me to cheer up.
but i can't luh alrite-.-
i'm so SORRY ):
yeah i realli am..
but seein hw badly a turn my life is gg for.
wad m i supposed to look 4ward to?
nth i guess.
yup.
i dun even wna talk abt my dae anymore. [HUITING! WORMIES!xD]
i realli dun have th mood to do so luh.
haiz.
fuckin depressed luh okay.. =/
zzz.



moody over life. n u. like always-.-

well. lets just see okay. tmr. nth will be done. like always i guess)x yeah. big fat disappointments. n i'm facin them alone. as usual.. well.. yeah.. unless..
Wednesday, May 16, 20075:54 PM couldn't u just like.. be more sensitive??=/ i guess u won't. so thr's no pt. like wad i've said so damn many times.



I'LL REPLY TAGS ANOTHER DAE THOUGH I HAVE TOO MANI TO REPLI [THX TO HT<3] YEAH.
I'M IN NO FRIGGIN MOOD TO DO SO CURRENTLY. DEPRESSED + EMO NW.
DUN MIND ME IF I DUN REPLI UR SMSES..
YEAH(:



thx a lot.

5:43 PM

wth luh.
another few more disappointments 2dae.
fuck it luh.
i'm just rottin my life away):
n rite.
cos of some ppl.
i worry abt art.
wtf?
is art even a subj for worryin?
no rite.
but.
it made me worry n i'm so fuckin pissed.

my results=/
geog sucks okay.
i failed terrbly.
35/100
surprisin rite.
fuck luh.
1st time fail until so cham.
t's why i see myself as a fuckin disappoint to my parents
who have expectations of me=x
sighs.
fuck it all.
i hate my life.
thr's no pt luh.
i shdn't jus emo-sh!t here everydae..
thr's no pt..
nth will change..
everybody wil jus fuckin not care..
got th china trip rite wth..
haiz.
i'm gna be sick thr..
zzz.

tt's why i sae thr's no pt in my life.
nth at all to look 4ward to )x
i hate this okay.
its like mani ppl think their life sucks too.
but mine is lyk shit can.
thr's no pt puttin small words anymore.
cos everyone will jus somehw enlarge it n see wad i type.
so everyth will jus be standard font-.-
but i'll just use small font anyway=x

fuck luh.
just nw sae wad i tao.
wadever luh.
i bet if i didn't mention it.
u wun even fuckin care at all luh.
th reason why i'm workin so hard is cos i wna pull up my grades okay.
if u duwan its ur business.
but i want it alrite.
so pls stop being like tht alrite
i hate it okay.
it was just under my table.
if i had left it thr.
i bet it will jus rot away luh.
nobody cares anw rite??
fuck it all luh.
i had a bad enough dae alr.
n it made it even more fuckin worse.
i was so pissed when i thot of th poster.
n even more when some ppl became hypocrites.
sae wad do poster,
okay lets do it nw.
then u didn't even fuckin stay back.
wads ur prob luh,
if u had realli wanted to do it.
u would not be like tht alrite.
u would have just stayed back n helped out.
even other grp de ppl also help me luh.
think abt it urself okay.
wad u have fuckin done.
n stop blamin it on me in one way or another n makin me feel guilty.
n increasin my load of emotional burdens.
i feel fuckin stressed cos i let down my parents alr alrite!
i cnnt forgive myself luh.
tt's why i'm so easily agitated okay.
n u JUST HAD TO COME ALONG N MAKE IT WORSE RITE????
fuck.
fuckin hypocrites.
thr's no pt.
):
sighs.
i realli hate this all luh.
screw it.

i shall just look 4ward to havin breakfast with HUITING tmr, since i cant think of anyth else to be haapie abt. my life just ROCKS TOO MUCH to have anyth happie tt i can look 4ward to.

Tuesday, May 15, 20079:50 PM

LIFE JUST SUCKS.
why am i postin so much tday anw?
lols.
life just sucks luh okay.
fuck it all can
zzz.
okay.
i shall use less of th f word.
but..
i cant help it okay.

I'M FUCKIN DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF OKAY):
i just wna cry it all out nw. but no one's thr for me..sighs.
7:45 PM
blah.
i have this feeling in my throat, nose area..
tt's why i have this feelin tt i'll be sick luh wth..
n tt's why i'm suddenli fuckin pissed at ppl..
haiz.
not onli cos i'm fallin sick luh.
also cos of other things mah(:
yeah..
i'm sick so i'm emo.
hahas i know it can't realli be an excuse..
but for those emo-ing too..
join th club!
hahas;D
lols i'm being lame luh.
random post mah this.

Andie. Julie. Raven.
Three very different women bound by more than just friendship.

okay wadeva=/
tt was from th back of th shockin pink book.
i took 1 min46 secs to type this post(:
7:32 PM
zzz.
haiz.
i'm fallin SICK. once again=x
bloody hell):
one bad thing aft another???
freakin sh!t.
sighs.
i just wish tht u could show a lil more concern..
i guess i realli need it.
6:41 PM
can i be like super fuckin emo?
cos i jus thot of all th good times tht we shared.
th past.
i know.
its alr th past.
but i cant fuckin help but think of it!
blah.
i may have others ard me.
but hw mani of them can i trust?
zzz.
sighs..
yup.
i still love u loads ):
but nth tt i wan seems to be happenin.
which is so freakin depressin for me..

n rite.
ohh you. [another person]
super fuckin bitch.
stop actin lyk tht.
its so fuckin superficial can?
fuck u.
i bet it was u.
fuck.
yuck.
th way i see u.
it fuckin makes me wna puke.
i bet u do this sorta thing all th time.
fuck luh can.
YUCKYUCKYUCK.
i'm thoroughly disgusted )x
by ur actions.
although onli 2..
but i think i've seen enough.
stop acting.
i've seen thru it.
yuck.
n it irks me.
so plz stop it.
thr's no pt caryin on with ur act..
n u n th rest.
fine.
everyone just..
dun care abt my feelings de.
so yep.
i shall not care anymore.
cos i FUCKING CANT.
so yeah.
thr's fuckin no pt.
i know.
ppl everywhr just FUCKIN HATE ME.
so its useless.
my every action.
thr's no fuckin pt in them. yeah(:
n i just wna sae to you:
stop being so FUCKING SUPERFICIAL.
i realli hate ppl like tht.
somemore still sct until like so..
i duno hw to explain luh.
but its so fuckin irritatin to see it alrite??!!
i hope u know.
so plz fuckin STOP IT.

yeah. tht's th end of my rantings.
i hate th fucking world.
n ppl fuckin lie to me.
so wads th pt?
sighs..
i wish..

5:06 PMREPLY TAGS.

from th part of 13th MAY whr i nv repli(: [ n th rest of th lil tags i have gotten, thx ppl. i loveya all!!!<3]

{bk: ello, taggy taggy....tag tag.....haha...
}hmph finally tag on my blog huh?? okay luh jkjk.. cya ard in CZ if i ever go bac thr again..(:

{-SHIPEI-: HAHA yep cheered up thanks to ur daily cheerups.LOL okay lame-.- too bored mah xD takecare!<33 anw i have a hard time reading the small words D:
hahas yeah gd to know tt u've cheered up!!!;DDD tkcr too.. n th small word not for ppl to see de mah!!! loveya girl!<3

{anqi: aarrgghh!!! i'm going blind!!!
}=P hahas. u wun go blind de luh-.-

{bel: aha! cool man! new laptop! x0
}yeah man! thx xDD

{brenda: hello! i came!! =)
}yeah n nice tt u've tagged!!! xD

{huiting: NICE DAY! the banana thing was horrid=X HEHEHS. drink until i want puke. yuck.
}its okay luh. den someone still sae jus nw wna drink it AGAIN hor!! hahas.

{ada`: hello dahling <3
}HEY DEAR!<3

{kim: hmphs! Never linkk me):
}hahas paiseh!!! will link u asap;D

{anqi: hihihihihihi!
}yoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyo!

{anqi: I STILL HATE THAT STOOOOPPIID FACT!!!
} facts are UGLY mah. but th fact tt I LOVE U isn't!! hahahaas(:

{viNSon: Hihi! first tym here at my mei mei blog.. cheer up kaes?
}hahas okay luh.. thx my dear kor!!!<3

{jianle!: PLANETSHAKERS! wahahas. i think they're better than simple plan luhhs xD cya there!^^
}yeah okay! ((x

{huiting: nice lunch! xP sighs. SUCK LA, HORS?<333
}ya lor. life sucks luh!!! boo! hahas. love<3

{chowy: yo:D haha hey its cool okie the not patrolling thing;D
}=P okay luh hahas;DD

{chowy: heehee,,,,, oh sh!t i failed science. AND MATHS =x
}serious?? aw. i almost failed luh=P friggin shyt MYE sucks rite ;D

{huiting: ahahahaha. U PERV. u actually liked that bk! xPP
}=PPP hahas u arh.. u dun like mah??

hahas so tt's all for my [lil] tags..
ppl are comin to my blog but not taggin!!-.-
lol nvm.
haiz ):
life just sucks yo. n we hafta live with tt fact =/
sighs..
for those who are sad nw..
CHEERRUP KAES!!
rmb tt some1 loves u!!<3

4:44 PM

zzz.
sian dae can.
MY RESULTS SUCK LUH!!!
fuck it all luh-.-
yeah so sai luh.
c6 c5 b4.
tt's all i got.
fuck it.
lols..
shdn't be so agitated bah..(:
but then.. it realli sucks luh.
onli my zuo wen get high high until nid type out onli=/
n i cant type yet.
not on this comp.
cos no chi yet.
this comp doesn't even have microsoft word etc etc etc.
yupp.
stupid rite??(x
haiz.
but good thing luh just nw.
mr wee added 4 marks to my paper 1 of math.
i hope paper 2 also add until i can pass(:
then change th weightage thingy,
so i can get.. b4???
yeah.
realli hope so.

lols okay dun talk results alr.
was readin this bk called shocking pink [fr HUITING] thru lessons.
yeah.
nice book xPPP
cos of some reasons ;DD
yup.
but i was super super bored during lessons luh,
so why not read???
true rite.
ya.. den when chi lesson.
tt chen lao shi luh.
look at me den scold me or sth i thot it was cos i readin th bk den i keep th bk.
den end up is cos my fone on th table-.-
like wth.
she interrupted my good read ):
fine wadever.

den asmbly.
talk abt china trip.
my class/2c is th nanjing grp rite??
so we dun have to buy 2 presents n stay at other ppl de hse rite????
i hope so.
cos i cant slp with some strangers ard=x
yeah.
haiz.
go china everth also cnnt do..
den mite as well dun go..
zzz.
i want a refund!!!
i dun wan go alr lo-.-
so freakin wan luh.
no pt gg..
then fri still got th briefin.
lyk wth.
onli give us wkend to prepare nia.
so i decided.
i wun go for th family dae camp.
or not i no time to prepare!!! )x
ya.
(:
th briefin was super boring..
me n jing hiang over thr crap alot.

den went for lunch with chengjoo n huiting(((x
white sands.
fried rice wrapped with omelette n some sauce also, with teriyaki chicken!!
it was ohsonice luh can??
i love it sooooooooooo much yo!
yupp..
haiz haven post pics abt ytd th latte n soda yet..
another time bah.
i wonder is th another time gna come.
cos i'm gna drag alottttt.........
n jus nw i went home with chengjoo..
walk th mrt track way.
i still dun whr's her hse-.-
cos i couldn't se th block, hahas.

yeah n nw i'm home on th comp.
n i shan't condemn AVRIL on my blog(:
cos i'm nice ;DD

Monday, May 14, 20078:43 PM

HAPPIE B'DAE TO MY DADDY DEAREST!!<33333

5:21 PM

HEY.
2dae was not sae very fun luh. but th part abt gg out with HUITING, oh yeah man i wna do it again!(:

morning rite, chowy jinni lihui jiayun n me go give th attendance thingy to teachers yeah. den aft tt chowy jinni lihui me go slack slack slack when we were supposed to be PATROLLIN luh. we were in council room until comin 9, den time literally CREPT past luh. just when u were thinkin tt half an hr passed alr, onli 5 mins pass luh wth-.- ya. den aft all those crap stuff i go find huiting n kim n we slacked. so borin luh. nth to do de. den still dun let us go out shop. wads th sch's prob luh!!=/ den rite, we RETARDEDLY started playin hide n seek. dun ask me hw was it. lols-.-

den me n huiting went to bugis. lol. we saw this nice nice puma bag at bugis street thr n huiting fell in love with it(: den also saw this white shorts, super nice luh, with red belt.. haiz. i wan can!!! gna get $$ fr mummy, den go out shoppin with huiting again<3

cos we tired mah, den huiting suggested gg to this shop n buy drinks thr so can sit thr n slack+chat;D duno call wad luh, start with t de this shop yupp. i bought this lime soda, n huiting bought banana latte. wah seh. th latte damn wad luh. come out from th straw look lyk shyt [literally:DD] hahas yup. shall post pics on it ltr if i have th time bah=D so fun luh just nw (x

lols this post like super short luh )x

omg i hate this luh.
its like we're still strangers luh wth.
is like so wad can.
i realli dun like it this way luh.
but i just gotta accept it rite-.-
why m i so in love with u??
thx for th dear memories yo.
all th good times tt we shared.
i realli treasure them.
nw we have such a super big gap between us,
of cos its impossible not to notice luh )x
haiz.
i shall concentrate more on other things bah yup(:
gettin back my life.
n loving others more?
yup.
my no.1
may not be u anymore):
sighs.
i duno luh.
i'm still a lil messed up nw.
everyth ard me,
its just out of control n alot of things aren't within my reach.
fine then.
wadeva.
i'll just leave it as it is bah.

Sunday, May 13, 200710:05 PM

sighs im super bored so i guess i'll post another post bah yeah(:

the wad deal or no deal show.. its pure dumb luh i think. de audience over thr keep sayin no deal,no deal, when i was figurin hw to dl things to this comp. lols-.= yeah den just nw i had intended to watch de parent trap, but ended up missin th show cos of th comp. heh.

i thot it thru.
i guess i still miss u.
n alot at tht too.
but u just wouldn't give much a damn abt me rite.
n th fact tt u're gg IP n all.
sighs.
u're just gna leave me,
aren't u?
i realli hope tt ain't gna happen..
but wad life throws at me,
i'm just gna have to accept it, right?
cos it can't be tht cos of u i dun go on with life..
if th worst happens,
i'm just gna have to accept it lo..
even if i dun wan to..
yep.
i hope u know hw i feel bah..
or i'll realli feel tht life has no meanin.
i just nid another confimation from u.
i hope u know ya? )x
i love u.

okay.. i know th font super small luh, but wadeva(: yeah. its on purpose de mah.. lols. i just wna crap. but ppl readin will jus get super super bored-.- so i shall spare their eyes alrites. i shall blog again tmr bah(x

9:01 PMoh yeah new comp!(x

oh yeah man i got new comp!!
somemore laptop sia!
i so happie can?? hahas lols.
hope tt this happiness lasts(:

to all mothers out thr 2dae,
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY.
esp to my dear MUMMY. I LOVE U<3

yeah. lols this stuupid com [as retarded as CHOWY<3] rite.
took me so long us to dl tt stuupid internet luh.
sai luh lols(x
i shall reply tags b4 recountin my dae;D

{-SHIPEI-: hey dearrr! glad u had fun ytd?;D cya arnd! love yaaa<33
}hey darl! loveya loads!!!<333

{sanosuke: hi LAOPUO! guess hu m i! hahas so obvious ryt
}like duh my anime addicted LAOGONG!!! hahas yeah loves<3

{leongying`: HELLO darling ;D
}hey dear!<3

{huiting: im sorry! i was out e whole day, no time to tag xP tagged!<333
}nvm my dearie.. loveya<3

{chowy: relink back))))): sorry luhs. tis girl here is stuuuuupid:D thanks i love ya alvina MUACKS! (not)
}=P u arh.. so ma fan-.- heh. duno why i still love u so much(x

{rachelXD: haiyoh de tiny font like ants x)
}hahas yeah. guyi de mah;D

{Nick: haha hello. your tagboard whr got dead. like mine xD wadever. lols. cya!(:
}lols. so happie got new comp! heh wadeva;D cya tmr or sth(x

{sanosuke: yo!!
}HEY!(:

so tt's ab it for my tags bah..

lols 2dae i woke up den slack until afternoon den go out celebrate mothers' dae yep.. i gave mummy her pressie n she liked it..[she sae de(x] den went out to suntec/marina thr.. was plannin to shop at marina, but somehw we ended up at suntec, then millenia walk yup..went to th harvey norman thr n tt's whr i got my new laptop yo!!!((: went to NYDC for dinner.. de mushroom soup tasted so yuck luh. more lyk mushroom MILK can..zzz. de lasagna was not bad lei.. but i didn't have a chance to try de apple crumble.. heard fr my dear godma tt its real nice yeah, so i shall try it nxt time.

lols. this post gettin super borin luh-.- wadeva. cos as i've said b4, i lead a boring life. yup)x anw i have nth else much to sae, jus tt i'm lookin 4ward to tmr! cos i can SLACK with ppl again n go out with huiting aft tt!!!<3


sighs.
i seriously wonder if u meant it.
not even an sms to show tt u care.
sighs.
i feel so broken within luh.
nvm.
i shall carry on with my life.
why shd my life stop just becos of a person??
yup(:

-CARRYIN ON WITH MY LIFE(x n lovin my new comp;DD

Saturday, May 12, 20072:52 PM

haiz.
my tagboard's gettin dead. boo)x
shall repli those lil lil tags bah(x

10th may
{brenda: heyhey!! exams r over!! woots!!
}yeah. hahas. takecare alrites(:

{anqi: yes there's sth freakingly wrong with blogger! grr. anyways no more exams yay
}hmm. yeah. pissed with blogger)x mayb changin to livejournal soon? heh. c 1st bah;D loveya<3

{pEiyun:): brandon duwan eat cos he say he wan jian fei>.< newayz, i was here:) takkaire my sweet:)
}ooh ic. okay. tckr too love;D

{brenda: wow... u changed ur blog skin!! =) nice one! stay happy ya?
}yeah thx loads. loveya<3

{huiting: ohmy.NICEBLOGSKIN(: loves<33
}of cos luh. i choose de mah!!! hahas yeah. loves<333

11th may

{pEiyun: wahh. ur blogskin dat girl de shoulder quite nice leh>.< im sick:) hahaha
}lols. must u let every1 know tt u're sick?? hahas jkjk.. heh(x

{kim: heyhey! here to tag you. dont be emo kay? smile(: loveya!
}kaes. thx yo. i tagged on ur blog too(:

{jinmin`: nice blogskin(: cheer up cos i ain't gonna do that well either.. jiayous and smile(:
}thx(: haiz nvm i'm not thinkin abt it anymore yp. loveya n jiayous too<3

{huiting: e best is miss lohs;D i dun feel lyk climbing storeys=X
}yeah. n if u're not climbin stories den can pei me slack alot again rite?;DD

{chowy: ((((((((: ahhh i miss morning duty wif you! NOT. hahas. jkkk~
}u bettr miss mornin duty wif me!! hahas. if not i dun let u touch my fone anymore yo ;DD

{anqi: HARLOW LAOPUO!!!! nice skin ya !but won't make me hungry anymore ler LOL haha love ya.
}hahas okay. i love u too<3

{chowy: relinkkkkkkkkkkkk:D
}relinked(:

{brenda: wah ur post real long lehhsx) but e middle part very interesting... lolz.. x)
}hahas. very enlightenin rites??=D

{huiting: DUN WORRY ABOUT PANGSEHING ME! (: YAYS! IT WAS A LOVELY DAY. LOOKING FORWARD TO MONDAY, EHS???;DD
}of cos. u're gg out with me mah!! hahas jk. yeah lookin 4ward! wna buy more stuff. n ltr i'll go broke..)x

12th may

{tingwei: harlow..can relink mi at thetruthalwayshurts.blogspot.com?
}RELINKED.n i taggged too. loveya<3

{rachelXD: HELLO! cheerup alright(: eh i lasttime had one anon person saying that i sucked.... hahahah(: bestofluck for your results alright!
}haiz. dun care those kinda anons luh. hahas(: yeah. n jiayous too alrite? tckr<3

yup.. so tt's abt it for my tags.. haiz.

t'day is gna be another boring saturdae.. ltr 4+ gg out duno go whr.. haiz.
cos 2dae parents sae gg out.. den i cnnt go out with other ppl.. wth luh.
so sian.
anw mornin jus nw i woke up at 11.45
den cos nv wear specs blur blur i look at th clock i thot it was onli 9 luh.
den when my mummy come wake me up [ i also duno why she wake me up 2dae)x]
i tell her it was onli 9 then she call me sotong luh.
lols.
zzz.
i'm still feelin slpy nw fr th lack of slp..
sighs.
n nw my mum's still naggin fuck it luh.
wads her prob luh.
fuckfuckfuck.
grr.
pissed nw.

haiz.
i realli hope tt u meant wad u said.
cos i dun wna be disappointed again.
u guys have alr excluded me.
i dun mind(:
but i dun want YOU to cast me away fr ur life too..[cos i love u too much]
i'll be livin in some shitty world alone luh.. haiz.
with onli my angel?
yeah.
tt's abt it.
so pls.
dun leave me alone okay..
)x

Friday, May 11, 20079:24 PM

lols. wth. de counter went haywire!! i just paste thr onli den th number i put start at 0. den nw it started at 3k plus. lols wth?? kaes whatever. i'll jus delete it sometime ltr bah;D

zzz.
i just can't stand u all.
even though.. fine luh
WHAT-EVER.
i'll jus not give a freakin much care abt u all alrite.
haiz.
n YOU.
u said tt wad last time when we plae truth or dare.
we just wanted to act SEHH.
den nw u leh,
also join em rites??
wads ur prob luh so bloody FUCKIN HYPOCRITICAL!
wadeva lo.
u bettr keep ur promise )x
or i shall become so damn fuckin upset again.

7:55 PMwhee~

2dae thr was de stupid mini olympics.
its sounds so freakin lame n it is also luh(:
i din even take part in anyth, so jus sit thr n slack slack slack.
was at stadium with huiting den clarrise charmaine n some junior came n we crap.
heh(x
den huiting n me go walk walk.
we ended up in 1L.
it was all because of some ppl i did not wan to c. she didn't either(:



we sat at thr for awhile n cam-whored xD
den kim came aft her captain's ball match n joined us.
we crapped somemore.
we were so freakin bored.
i was playin snakes,
huiting was readin,
n kim was playin some game on my fone.
yup.
den were all lyk 'wtf?? still got so long till 3..'
den we got super hungry.
n went down to canteen.
sway luh go thr still can c them..


den saw clarrise charmaine n tt some junior again.
clarrise was like fuck fuck fuck all th way.
n i was tellin her.
dun fuck alr.
u wouldn't want to fuck tt person(:
or any1 else.
den she sae: den i wna fuck u.
lols? hahas(:
i dun mind(((x
heh. okay.
den charmaine was scoldin a guy fuck also luh.
th guy was onli behind us yup.
den we all went to 1L to slack again.
we were pretty happie.
cos mr chua sae sch ends at ONE((=
yeah.


we go 1L rite, den huitng n kim suddenli disappear.
i told clarrise n charmaine i go find her yup.
den i saw tt they talkin to mr wee.
so i talk also lo;D
yeah den we returned to 1L.
started crappin n all tt again.
talked abt LOADS of ppl luh yeah ;)
abt * n * n * n *..
n th list goes on.
okay i know i'm CRAPPIN, but wadeva.
we talk 4 1h luh.
den suddenli it seemed like th time passed do freakin fast can??
hahas yeah.
den go G.O thr lo.
wait with huiting for her parents.
pangseh-ed her halfway.
SORRIE MY DEAR!!!)x
yeah.


den went to orchard.[with my bestie!!]
2dae at 1st quite quiet.
den got quite high(:
bought anqi's , yj's n my daddy's pressie 1st.
i took a super long time to choose luh):
my bestie over thr nodding off to slp alr=/ hahas.
den went to kinokuniya n read some ENLIGHTENING book lols.
i finished almost th whole bk damn fast luh.
also duno hw i read de(: hahas.
yeah.


den i learnt tt we shd look on th brighter side of life
[i'm TRYIN to]

dun tell ourselves things like: ppl in sch dun like me. i dun want to go to sch anymore.
[i'm TRYIN to]

we must have more self confidence in ourselves
[i'm TRYIN to have it]

we must not criticise ppl n also not criticise ourselves.
[i'm TRYIN not to do so]

take compliments as a gift, we dun return gifts, so dun throw it back to th person.
[i'm TRYIN not to]

kick off bad habits by picturing urself doin so. dun just sae it n dun take action.
[i'm TRYIN to]

whenever u think u have more problems than ur parents, make a list abt wad problems u have. then add abt another 100[it'll be more than tt] n it will sum up to th total no. of things ur parents have to worry abt. so stop thinkin tt they are always pissin u off for no good reason alrite(: they have alot more things on their mind than u do..
[i'm TRYIN not to piss them off much too(:]

dun think tt ur life sucks alr okay. thr are mani more things tt u can concentrate on.
[okay. i'm TRYIN to]

study well not for th sake of ur parents, tutor etc etc. it shd jus absolutely be for URSELF
[i'm TRYIN to. but my results suck.]

dun look on th negative side of things. etc: if u think tt u hate math n can nv do well in it. i will jus come true okay. so dun think tt way. put in more effort n u'll realise tt ur grades will improve easily(:
[i WISH. i'll just TRY to change my way of studyin bah.]

if u do good things n it goes unnoticed, dun be too upset. make a mental note abt wad u did, n once u look back abt all th good things tt u've done, u'll be pleased.
[okay. i'll TRY]

it doesn't hurt to give some 1 a compliment. it can make tt person's day/wk/mth. yeah.
[okay(:]

however compliments tt come from CRAWLERS shdn't be taken seriously. they jus sae good things abt ppl for th sake of sayin it to get into ppl's gd books. so beware of these ppl. n dun become one. a compliment shd be meaningful n from th botton of ur heart(x
[alrights.]

u shdn't use th word TRY. u shd sae I WILL. or I MUST.
[tt's why u shdn't learn from me. i've been using th word try since th top of this thing)x]

okay. tt's abt all i can rmb bah.
lols.
i cant believe i rmbed so much.
heh.
okay.
my bestie was slpin while sittin n leanin on the side of th shelf lo.
n i was readin th book(:
when my bestie wake up alr i super hungry luh.
so we go buy food.
heh.
omelette wif fried noodles with ketchup n some white sauce.
=D
damn nice luh.
mayb it was cos i very very hungry=/ but wadeva(x
had ice cream aft tt.
i'm eatin so mani sweet things everydae,
i'm realli gna get diabetes):
hahas..


yeah den went paragon n jus slacked loads.
toys r us was farnie!
i laughed so much thr.
wad with all th grenades.
n th noodles.
which i used to poke my bestie with.
hahas(:
u so scared of poke arh u!!!((x
hahas yeah.
den we sorta lay at one baby cot each. lols.
from th back ppl must hav thot tt we were totally RETARDED!
lalas.
nvm.
bestie's cot stumbled down a lil. heh.
hahas..
haiz.
i haven laughed so much in a long time.
true laughter.
not like..
haiz nvm bah.
hahas((:
still loved 2dae.
so fun can??
yup..


almost fell aslp while standin n holdin on to th pole=x
lucki nv sehh..
den managed to find a place onli when th train reached tanah merah [as usual]
den b4 tt playin my car racing game.
lols.
i beat my high score again.
kae luh its damn low tt's why i keep beatin it(:
den aft tt super energized.
also duno why.
tt's like my 2dae luh.
its FUN xDD
although my post does not realli show it):