ALVINA. soon to be FIFTEEN
currently in 3G and its on th fourth level of ANGLICAN HIGH SCHOOL.
proud to be in th ahsCHOIR and i'm sure many would agree with me. (: music has a strong hold on my life, as i have discovered, in many different forms. my life has many contradictions, but well, life itself is a contradiction. perfection's a goal for many, but not me. dreams are reality tht's yet to come true, & this is all that i have to say!. :D

Wednesday, May 16, 20075:43 PM wth luh.
another few more disappointments 2dae.
fuck it luh.
i'm just rottin my life away):
n rite.
cos of some ppl.
i worry abt art.
wtf?
is art even a subj for worryin?
no rite.
but.
it made me worry n i'm so fuckin pissed.

my results=/
geog sucks okay.
i failed terrbly.
35/100
surprisin rite.
fuck luh.
1st time fail until so cham.
t's why i see myself as a fuckin disappoint to my parents
who have expectations of me=x
sighs.
fuck it all.
i hate my life.
thr's no pt luh.
i shdn't jus emo-sh!t here everydae..
thr's no pt..
nth will change..
everybody wil jus fuckin not care..
got th china trip rite wth..
haiz.
i'm gna be sick thr..
zzz.

tt's why i sae thr's no pt in my life.
nth at all to look 4ward to )x
i hate this okay.
its like mani ppl think their life sucks too.
but mine is lyk shit can.
thr's no pt puttin small words anymore.
cos everyone will jus somehw enlarge it n see wad i type.
so everyth will jus be standard font-.-
but i'll just use small font anyway=x

fuck luh.
just nw sae wad i tao.
wadever luh.
i bet if i didn't mention it.
u wun even fuckin care at all luh.
th reason why i'm workin so hard is cos i wna pull up my grades okay.
if u duwan its ur business.
but i want it alrite.
so pls stop being like tht alrite
i hate it okay.
it was just under my table.
if i had left it thr.
i bet it will jus rot away luh.
nobody cares anw rite??
fuck it all luh.
i had a bad enough dae alr.
n it made it even more fuckin worse.
i was so pissed when i thot of th poster.
n even more when some ppl became hypocrites.
sae wad do poster,
okay lets do it nw.
then u didn't even fuckin stay back.
wads ur prob luh,
if u had realli wanted to do it.
u would not be like tht alrite.
u would have just stayed back n helped out.
even other grp de ppl also help me luh.
think abt it urself okay.
wad u have fuckin done.
n stop blamin it on me in one way or another n makin me feel guilty.
n increasin my load of emotional burdens.
i feel fuckin stressed cos i let down my parents alr alrite!
i cnnt forgive myself luh.
tt's why i'm so easily agitated okay.
n u JUST HAD TO COME ALONG N MAKE IT WORSE RITE????
fuck.
fuckin hypocrites.
thr's no pt.
):
sighs.
i realli hate this all luh.
screw it.

i shall just look 4ward to havin breakfast with HUITING tmr, since i cant think of anyth else to be haapie abt. my life just ROCKS TOO MUCH to have anyth happie tt i can look 4ward to.