ALVINA. soon to be FIFTEEN
currently in 3G and its on th fourth level of ANGLICAN HIGH SCHOOL.
proud to be in th ahsCHOIR and i'm sure many would agree with me. (: music has a strong hold on my life, as i have discovered, in many different forms. my life has many contradictions, but well, life itself is a contradiction. perfection's a goal for many, but not me. dreams are reality tht's yet to come true, & this is all that i have to say!. :D

Thursday, May 31, 20073:15 PM CHINA TRIP!
i just got back from it last night.
n i slpt n slpt until just nw-.-

ah.
mayb i'll be bettr off in china.
i didn't think abt many things thr.
but when i'm back in s'pore.
its like WTH?!
okay wadevr.
i guess no1 realli cares=/

SHANGHAI was okay luh. th bed in th hotel is th biggest among all. although th lobby was friggin small. i still cant believe tht its a FOUR STAR hotel=/ yep. n rite. th air thr super dusty. when th wind blows, all th dust gets in to ur eyes. gah! haiz. th scenaries.. hmm.. [wad did we see thr??] i cant rmb luh.. all super borin to me.. cos i was so tired aft th 7hr flight, whr i slept quite lil.. all i rmb was, i almost got knocked down by this friggin rider who's such a bitch n he knocked me n gave me a buay song look den go off. like wtf??? grr. ya. th 1st night at china was spent at th shanghai hotel slackin n aft tht slpin.. zzz.

HANGZHOU was th best among all(: th weather was quite pleasant n th air was clean. th food was nice n th hotel was nice too. it served th best breakfast among all bah=D hahas. th room was nice;D with th chnls. but no ESPN-.- so we missed th liverpool vs AC milan match. but rite. me n cheryl didn't even wake up at 2+ luh. cos of me=/ cheryl hear alarm won't wake up de. but i will. but rite. i didn't manage to stay awake long enough to wake cheryl up.. haiz. ya so liddat lo): den we wake up eat breakfast.. aft tht take bus to NANJING.

hmm.. th schl rite. from th outside it looked damn NICE luh. but right, th toilets are like. urgh! okay wadevr. i was totally sian diao on th 1st dae when we went to th schl luh can.. grr.. borin yo.. den comes th food. [we're like forever eating n eating, almost all of us put on weight can???=///] th wad xian[2] shui[3] ya[1].. omg. not nice luh so salty=p den joyann cheryl me started eatin this veg which didn't look appetising from th outside but tasted nice when th rest of those on th table went to toilet(: [tingwei didn't like it):] ya. den for th hotel-.- total PORN hotel can!!! toilet no lock, pic of naked woman on table, pics of half naked men n women in th lifts.. total yuck-ness luh!!! okay wadevr.. yup.

i dun feel like sayin anyth else abt th trip le luh.. grr.
gettin emo again-.-
i hate this):
haiz..
but thru this trip right..
i realise tht u cnnt keep secret fr teachers..
well at least not for long-.-
aha.
well, things have changed bah.
n alot too..



haiz.
i knew..
tht u realli dun care abt me.
u dun think abt me.
i'm so fuckin upset to learn tht ytd. [right aft i got back fr china]
tht i cried n cried.
till my tears ran dry.
tht's why i slpt so late last night.
i seriously wasted all of my fuckin time thinkin of u..
wishin tht u'll think abt me too.
fuckfuckfuck.
grr.
its so fuckin upset for me can.
i just cant get over u!
wads fuckin wrong with me???
others get over theirs within a shortshort period of time.
but i cant.
i seriously cant.
i still fuckin love u.
i don't know why.
i can find another guy.
but i cant.
n i won't.
i got so fuckin emo.
n it was ALWAYS becos of u.
i cant get used to me without u alrights.
n ppl still sae..
well i guess it just won't come true.
fuck.
i hate my life.
it was so much bettr in china(:
whr it was all fun&games n without worries.
i hate it when i'm back here in s'pore.
fuck it all.
i hate everyth related to u.
cos it makes me so fuckin upset.
to even think abt u nw.
i've wasted so mani days of my life.
becos of u.
a person who fuckin doesn't care abt me.
when i do.
a person who is so hypocritical.
u told th rest duno wad shyt.
fine luh.
i dun care alr. [i'll try]
i'll stop all my eff-ings.
try luh.
cos no1's showin me concern ;(
zzz.


but aft all these,
i still love u.
although i know this means nth to u.


yeah. n my life sucks-.-
no1 cares n i still have to live it=/
haiz.
still hafta go to sch tmr.
n i'll still see him..
like wth..
i don't want to.
not anymore.
since ytd ;(


i kinda hate everyth nw.
everyth seems eff-ed up n is pissin me off D:
so sad luh can..
haiz..

for th fun time in china, its was
christina cheryl jinghiang peiyun avril rachel hsinyin huiting chengjoo brenda melanie zihuan kimberly qianru joanne cliffton brandon rizvan darren joshua xinlong jiaqin yilin ruibin.

yep.



sorrie but i'm random-in..
super emo&bored nw with no1 here for me..
gah!!! ;((