ALVINA. soon to be FIFTEEN
currently in 3G and its on th fourth level of ANGLICAN HIGH SCHOOL.
proud to be in th ahsCHOIR and i'm sure many would agree with me. (: music has a strong hold on my life, as i have discovered, in many different forms. my life has many contradictions, but well, life itself is a contradiction. perfection's a goal for many, but not me. dreams are reality tht's yet to come true, & this is all that i have to say!. :D

Friday, February 16, 20079:58 PM I have many more.
I could go on and on.
Regrets.
Come from actions.
Perhaps from yesterdays,
Or from a long tym ago.
Bury them in the bac of ur mind.
But u still can’t escape.

I jus wanna run away but I cant hide. Wad is wrong wif this fuckin world or isit jus me?? I seriously dun wanna think abt it anymore. Reluctant to face each dae. This is the real me. or isit? I do not know. Ytd was a really regretful dae. I made a mistake which I will regret for a very long tym. Cheryl, thx 4 sharin wif mi abt de ‘stalker’ experience. It made mi feel a lot better. But still, it did not solve mi problem. Yeah, really thx. But ur fingernails are really sharp luh can. Lols.

Mayb this is jus all fated to be so. Its all meant to be. Life’s ups n downs. But if so, I rather not live it this way or even thru it. Especially the worst daes ever. This is one of those. Im fucking moody & get pissed really easily. I may jus be lyk ‘fuck off’ anytym luh. Yeah. But I stil <3 ya all :D CNY’s approachin soon, hv to wake up fuckin earli. Sorri 4 the overusage of de F word, but yeah accept it as this is mi blog n not urs, so u cant do anyth to change this. Concert’s on wed. shd I go bac to dere aft tt?? Fuck it. Its so orin bac dere. All of them r lyk actin onli can. They put on masks. Yes, dey always do. Its __’s b’dae tmr yepp? Weird tt I stil rmb. Im so nice. Mayb I stil cant let go. No. I cnnt turn bac to the past. Crap. I wanna abolish all ties wif em. But I cant really bring myself to do so.
Belated loves 4 valentine’s dae. I hope u had a nice one. I did not. Yeah. N an earli happi CNY! Mayb tis entry seems 2 b ending. But its not. Y do ppl always associate greetins/ important stuff to b endings?? Im lyk WAD DE HELL can. I wanna talk lots. Serios. I almost failed math n chi. FUCK. For de 1st tym ever. Wadeva luh. I cant do anyth bout it anymore le. FUCKING studies.

I jus wanna pour out all mi feelins n no1 is supposed to see al these but hu cares anymore?? Hu gifs a fuckin damn?? Worse daes of mi life. Dere’s improvement nw, he’s startin 2 talk more 2 mi (: but im stil feelin damn sad n cnnt take it luh. If I cud jus not care bout every1 else, I wud be so happi. Yeahs. But reality check. I cnnt do all those stuff. I nid to wake up. Lyk isn’t fair at all. Most of wad I wan wun jus happen liddat. Mayb im not easily contented. Mayb this. Mayb that. I jus nid to suppress mi emotions sumtyms. Hu can I tell all these to?? Only myself.

LOVE IS NTH BUT A FUCKIN KNIFE. This is so true can. It stabs at ppl so hard dey almost bleed. Or bleed in de heart. Feelins of pain, anger, hurt, sorrow, sadness are all mixed together.. but u still feel love. Lyk mi. I really stil love him. N a lot too..